For the first time in my life I opened my eyes yesterday morning and immediately started to cry. It took me by complete surprise. Crying? In the morning? I love waking up to a new day! I don't need coffee to cheer me up. Don't get me wrong, I love my coffee but I also love mornings.
So after a minute or two it dawns on me that, yes I have a really ugly breast. I have to actually go through another 5 months of reconstruction on my left side weather I like it or not. I have deal with this. I don't like it. I'm really pissed off about it. I JUST WANT TO BE DONE WITH IT! I want to go to work and FLEX some muscle. I want to jump on a beach bike and ride as fast as I can in the middle of the night, chasing the light of the moon with the ocean mist in my face....... I wanna
But let me tell you guys something.....Kathy, one of my closet friends woke up this morning. She wasn't crying. Kathy was getting ready to attend a fund raiser. She lost her 28 year old son a few months back and her day would be spent honoring Chris. God Bless Her and Her Family!
Today, I'm thankful for all God has given me......
3 comments:
hey darlin, dosn't look as bad as I expected. looks like you stuck a pin in one side. I know this is a royal pain but it will all be in the past soon. Hang in there hugs and kisses to you both.
MOM
Bubby~~I can only imagine the disappointment that you feel~~but for all it is worth the right one looks great~~so~~time will pass quickly and before you know it you will be on the bike riding in the sand under the full moon!! LOVE and miss you guys!! Kathy Sue
BUB~ I can't even begin to understand the frustration you are going through but I am sooooo happy that you are being so brave and strong through all of this. What an inspiration you are!!! I love you more than you know!!! MISS YOU TONSSSSS!! Kisses and HUGE hugs to you and Freddy!!!
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